spiritual studies

I am studying Kabbalah right now as I have been interested in different religions since I was about 13 years old. I have also delved in Eastern religions, Christianity and Judaism. Kabbalah is enlightening and so real. It is, however, hard to deal with people who drain your spirit with negativity when you are trying to rid yourself of it by your learning process.
I find people who are judgemental and hypercritical seem to be caught in jealousy, anger, fear, and self doubt. These are all such destructive emotions and they tend to push people away who might genuinely wish to be friends with you. I have been in these very emotional prisons and do not wish to return. I never know if it is right to leave these people out of my life, or stay around and be the "light" that they need. Kabbalah teaches us that we must always share the light within us to become more of the light ourselves. I have found, for myself, that material things and aspirations are not always what we need, but what our ego wants. Ego is our own worst enemy. We try to become someone or some thing that we were never meant to be. We see other's lives as more fulfilling, or rewarding. In reality, every circumstance has it's own problems and rewards. We need to learn to walk in someone elses shoes before we utter any judgements upon them or their choices. We each travel our own road and only we can choose each twist and turn. Choose wisely and never judge the well traveled road as any better than the small overgrown path. Greater wisdom may come in exploring the lesser known road. The well traveled path may be easier; but it also may lead to less of a spiritual awakening than the lesser traveled one.